Madness and grief

There is a madness
in my grief -
they say it's
only natural.
It doesn't feel
natural -  it feels
frightening.
My mind has
double vision -
perhaps my soul
needs spectacles.
But then I would
see more clearly.
I don't know if
 I am ready for that.
You see it hurts
 and I did not think
it would hurt so much.
Or did I? I think
I only hoped
it wouldn't.

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