We are one you and I,
formed in the same heart
of consciousness, of matter
and of Soul - birthed in
a single out-breath of mind;
in an eternal Now
of cosmic becoming.
This love which waters life and soul,
is sourced in river's deep,
of God's eternal graciousness,
which carries you to me.
And in the currents endless,
as tides and times do flow,
I find that I am drifting on
to you, and heart's true home.
Compulsion holds my hand and says,
with whispered, bright intent,
'if you will walk the way I show,'
you'll never have to tell,
the truth which eats away inside,
and talks of demons raw;
instead we'll hide it all away -
and bury who you are.
We may not choose experience,
or that which comes to us,
but mindfullness means we
may choose what we will do with it.
It is within our consciousness,
the key to choosing lies,
where we can move beyond instinct,
from react to respond.
My world takes on a certainty,
through what I see around,
a comforting and settling,
into the sure and known.
And yet it is illusion,
these things which hold me safe,
because in instants changing,
I'm in another place.
It did not seem to be the way
that I had hoped it would,
for life had taken other paths,
than I had thought it should.
And yet these words of
should and would and even could
suggest, that there is more at work
in life than we may ever know.
Deep sadness holds
at throat and gut,
a gripping onto life-
denying death
and screaming fears-
half living in the depths.
The tears are there,
but will not come,
held tight by grief
and loss -
awaiting moment's
watershed; a time
to be released.